The truth is that you are always going to be losing things. You will lose an earring down the depths of the sink, or your socks in that strange dimension between the wash and your drawer. You will lose your first tooth when you are seven. For days you will run your tongue absent-mindedly over the gap and startle, yet again, at the strange loss of something you had always believed was a permanent part of you.
Later you will go on to lose your favorite toy at a foreign hotel, and too many tears over the schoolyard gossip that made its way back to you. You will lose your heart to a boy whose voice cracks a little when he teases you, who smiles at you with the sun rising in his eyes. Months later you will find yourself losing faith in what you had thought to be love.
You will lose car keys, and phone numbers, and parcels in the mail. You will lose time. You will lose sleepless nights, and childhood dreams, and God only knows how many times you will lose hope in life.
So here is the sad, harsh truth: the earth is always going to spin on its axis, the tides are always going to change, and you are always going to be losing things. But there are some things you will learn to come to terms with, even when they disappear. These are the things that might be better off gone, and the people who do not deserve to claim a spot in your life. This is the little alphabet on paper that does not define you, or your self-worth. This is the friend who stopped holding on after all those times you reached your hand out. This is the boy who said he would call but never did.
Some things can be replaced, like bobby pins or name cards or ballpoint pens. There are some things you will learn to let go of, and there are others you will learn you should’ve held on tighter to. These are the things that will leave gaping holes behind in their absence, which you will try – and fail – desperately to fill. These are the things you must learn to fight for. These are the people you must chase after, the friendships you must not take for granted.
You are always going to be losing things, it’s true. But some things are worth the fight, and some aren’t, and this is just one of those little things you learn along the way.